only the person who's made the movie knows what goes into the decisions that result in any piece of work: JUST LIKE THE CREATOR !!! "when the director yells cut, I'll be fine."
there are no minor decisions. how &why we create our own prisons..
color being used 4 drama, 4 furthering the story, 4 deepening characters (show don't tell)
theme (what of the movie). style (how). 
sometimes I'll look back at work, "oh that's what I was interested in then." (must see it).
my life will define itself as I live it. (few people read Bible, most will watch your life, light..).
home, in the sense of self knowledge.
everyone is in love with the wrong person
each time we shoot, it's a take. when a take seems satisfactory, we call out "print." (film).

when anxiety goes up, brain shut off. no room 4ego. 
when you are feeling comfortable, get uncomfortable.
never reveal how far you were prepared to go
negotiation is listening; the words behind the words.
people usually hear or interpret issues to their own advantage. perception is all there is
if you have nothing to say, say nothing.
if you don't ask, you don't get it. if you don't ask, you don't want it.
the initial offer is not the best offer.
way to test assumption is to state it as fact. a confident statement, sounds as good as 
they only listen to use it against you.

solitude, like a love one, deepens with time, &
I am living under a powerful spell, the spell of the sea. thirst for God became an aguish
I knew she needed more love than I could give. can't explain it, nor do I want to.
in the artist, the child is alive. his need to hibernate.
I see it in myself, is the danger of withdrawal into private worlds.
many of us are literally weighed down. who can imagine hunger, even for one day ? #fast
the slow taming of this wild creature has been fascinating.
a civilized society is one which sees evil in itself &provides means to eliminate it, where voice of conscience is active.. r we in the west on way out partly bc we have provided our people w almost everything except an ideal ? 
detachment which springs from inability 2love is another thing; it stays close 2cynicism. 
a pink poinsettia is one of the rewards of getting up. <3. the blessing of the sun. 
he gives away at the shallow level of social intercourse, loses will to attempt deeper ..
the saint must not know he is a saint.. he is far too busy thinking about other people.
problem women have, even now, is that they have to be both Martha &Mary most of time
brave people have to be every day, to maintain themselves, against all that is asked.
married, because they have the guts to fight, painful as it was.
a woman who has no children is always a little on the defensive. 
made me terribly sad not to be able to communicate.
what delights the reader in a journal is often minute particulars.
he would have unraveled the figure in the tapestry w absorbed interest. #childlike
had imagined all sorts of horrors, of course.
realized how starved I am for this kind of convo, rich in knowledge &wisdom, &reflection.
a mother's love for her kids, even her inability to let them be, is bc she is under painful law
a friend, who stays near by, but not here, is a good friend indeed ! 
how those who cheat, robbed of dignity. about the death of the spirit in our inner cities. 
he was teased for bringing books to the pool. (&?)
have I ever in fact, been part of society ? rly it is thrilling to be so isolated in fierce world.
a college is a closed world, a breeding ground for prima donnas
there is no growth without pain. (fight against comfort, free spirit !)
what makes academic world so stultifying is not the teaching, but all committee to work, the politics, &playing for position. "organization man" =deadly. #manage #gov < #PPL
just another sign of how bureaucracy works to devour lives &substance (!!!!!!!!!!)
shared such prefect communion. heaviness of morality upon me.
I enjoy life but without great enthusiasm. (is it better 2b dispassionate , or passionate ?)
I do feel I am hovering around something that is about to reveal itself . revelation
what makes the spinster is fear of life. .. life too full to record lately. <333

today is longest day of the yr -but anymore, everyday is .weather, is increasing concern.
a little brushing up. in case you don't recognize yourself.
you're like a preteen who needs her dad more than ever.
a premiere : you unveiling yourself .
nothing was as real as her imagined world. 
proof that no investment is yours forever.
what you don't really want to know -but you don't dare forget.
you have endless ways you can commit suicide without dying dying. (most are dead ).
does anybody really know why they like anything ? (we r spirits, led by good or evil !!!)
what tortured him made him a genius. (anything, in excess.. #bound #ambition).
bc everything is important. every detail. we just don't know why yet .
the job of an artist is just not to forget.
so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember sweetness.no scar 4happiness
how your whole life is about discovering who you already were .

"of man's 1st disobedience, &the fruit /of that forbidden tree" -open line, paradise lost. (God "you will die," &look at that: we live). this still taught ? no way.. fearful need control .

gothic novels generally feature B. gloomy settings &supernatural occurrences. 
beowulf is the oldest existing English B. epic.
the hero of Gulliver's travels A) visits a land of tiny ppl (you) &a land of philosophers (me).
among themes in franz Kafka's :C) alienation &impossibility of human interconnection. 
Epic theater of Bertolt Brecht attempts: involve audience intellectually not emo (fleeting).
legend of Faust ? man who sells soul to devil in return 4youth, knowledge, power. (fauci?)
siblings who wrote JaneEyre &Wuthering Heights ? Emily &Charlotte Bronte. #sisters4eva
man's rediscovery of sexual vitality was clue to his salvation : DH Lawrence. (interesting).
who was George Eliot ?(#woman. she didn't complain about name, bc she was busy..). <3
Ulysses : sailor faced danger &adventure on way home from Trojan War. (endless battle).
Russian novelist wrote sweeping sagas or historical &moral crises ? Tolstoy. (my boy).
British novelist &critic (ofc); stream of consciousness &interior monologue </3. -woolf 
why was writer Salman Rushdie forced into hiding? wrote book deemed blasphemous by certain members of a religious group. (new religion : leftism. LOL. where is 45 ? #free ? ).

isn't it amazing how we didn't learn anything for 12 years? I couldn't tell you 1 thing. I look back at tests &it's like who cares who wrote "A streetcar named desire"? what perspective did author have ? how could we apply it to real life ? but, they're never going to give you wisdom, you need to be free, from world. get in lover, WE'RE HOMESCHOOLING . *ok*

"book that made Ralph Ellison famous is : story of AA man's search for identity in 30s" 
       like, we are still stunted there. unreal.. maybe not.. intentional, I mean !!!
"which of these is written by Toni Morrison" -what a useless question. -how about the scene in "the Bluest Eye," when protagonist finally has her picture taken, &only then, does she realize she is black ?! HAHA <3. (bc she doesn't have blue eyes, she thinks she's ugly. isn't that a thought every woman has, at some point??? #world teaches, they blame Christians lolol. #hate is #obsessive, y'all. they see nothing else, but God. just pathetic).
        "when you think of EE Cummings, what stylistic eccentricity comes to mind?" 
D. his use of only lowercase letters in poetry. (how this "tests your iq" ? #surface #bored).
  stay dumb, y'all ! (or don't, PLS.wake from slumber, stop forgetting.not content anyway ).

"woods are lovely, dark, &deep /but I have promises to keep /&miles 2go b4 I sleep"
Emily Dickson ? (19th c poet / used imagery of nature 2explore human consciousness)..
what is transcendentalism ? -movement led by Emerson /stressed divinity of man. <3
"Naturalist" : limitations of social conditions &heredity on man's capacity2change. #adapt
"tall tale" : exaggerated anecdote about frontier life . (imagine no wifi ? we die ).
Uncle Tom's Cabin: important influence on A) Abolitionist movement. #freeslaves5ever
walt Whitman's poetry was among 1st in America2 : B. eliminate regular metric structure.
Louisa may Alcott is known for her .. A) moralistic (gasp) novels for children. (BANNED).
"life is real, life is earnest (serious) ! &grave is not it's goal" -Longfellow. (c Jesus rise).
​LYRICAL &ROMANTIC .