"but, there's nothing i wouldn't do to settle up w heaven. there's debts i gotta settle in heaven. (God= only thing that's real). what is this weight of my life?
let's go over this "note" @423am: *posted2ig* /not this, or s vids /porn banned. R yes .
-is the attention killing us ? the ego sure is. (it's not working, i'm not listening !!! x)
"lost couple pieces when i carried it home.. mind feels like a foreign land.. get addicted to a losing game. pls carry me" (they can identify problem, but pride keeps them from solution: #God carries it. hey "soul" ("life" in Bible), you're meant 2b w Creator in garden).
"hey everyone, i killed myself &my fam" (who is he talking to? ppl don't k you. everywhere, fake communities: online, signs, sex, skin; we want to be known). "if I'm going to die, i might as well get some atten" (jus incredible). "4those who don't k, I've had depression since 9th" (why would we k? who do u think u r ? this false sense of self god..). *would cut himself twice a day, &say that's better than normal*. -how messed up r u? it's like a competition online. (does culture not GLORIFY "passionate" "violent" spirit? every film..). the tortured artists is another falsity the world tries to get you to believe in ).
"every1 posts useless mental health links on stores, but when you actually interact w some1 whose depressed, you realize how impossible fixing them is." (ppl r thirsty 4replenishing /love (y'all don't even k love yet)). "I've never benefited* from telling someone about how depressed i was" (amazing.. notice word choice. everything serves human down here.. they use each other. to no avail, but still bot won't change ways..).
"eventually i was thrown in some teen mental health camp where I was finally diagnosed &got medication.. they gave me coping* mechanisms." (*all tis* /nada ever fixed here /round &round, they stumble in dark. "journaling".. more talking to.. devil).
"2nd sem junior y (as some of you know).." *when God doesn't know you, you have to be known by every1.. who thinks like this? noOne else will do.. still prideful stumbles.* "I became cool." *jus 1 more like; wait I need "likes" today* UGH, &this mental illness's "normalized." *coping* they tell u they talk to demons, to relate. he continues into senior y, where he "manages to get gf", "programming god," w "solid new friend group" gets into certain school "which is supposed 2b a big deal... (later writes: "a piece of paper.. doesn't it feel like you're wasting your time.. #borrowedtime). my life was starting 2sound perfect right?" WHAT DAH , did you fix anything ?! (all outward. bc Earth has no answers 4 inward. they "just" have to keep illness at bay.. it's right around corner.. GET OUTT).
next para, "unfortunately, the answer is yes. my life was perfect. that was the issue." LOLOL, amazing how, demon spins his brain to believe in broken?? (just another coping mechanism.. all this, is how it's supposed to be, right? #science?lol. things are broken, so should u be; HUHH? no wonder they don't believe in God. what a cruel existence.. they traded the truth for a lie. terrified at change.. what's your therapist supposed to tell you? she doesn't know either ? "my life was perfect but that didn't change the fact that I was depressed. I would still have the urges .. or end up crying myself to sleep. I tried doubling my medication which worked, but only temporarily. every solution was always temp."
*read rest? /not OK ! but OK'ed ?! you can &must overcome, to live. let's address elephant in the room: what is life? death? y we here ? *must be present with God; rest is fake*
how did this guy not have 1 Christian (solver) in his life ? church, where are you ?!??!